Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Quiet desperation



I am in need of a change. A big one.

In lieu of a holiday that is. Apparently it's as good as.

I am being rendered uninteresting by the immense structure of my days.

My strategy, you see, for motherhood, until now, has been routines, routines, routines. This was a necessary adjustment from my previous life as a fancy-free, responsibility-phobic night owl musician. The pendulum has swung entirely the other way, and seems to be stuck.

I have now become an early riser whose day is charted weeks before it dawns.

Holy sh*t, you can see my problem.


Where is the middle ground?

I have always been a touch extreme, I admit.


New year's resolutions are thus formulating.

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